That worked out very well for yesterday, but today has been a different story:(. I woke up feeling anxious. Texted a friend who just got pregnant via her second round of IVF. Her advice was to relax and stay busy. The first part I am struggling with. I went to work and distracted myself there pretty well since class assignments are about to be mailed and before they even got to the mailbox I have had two parents express concern about their child's placement. Normally this would annoy me, but honestly it is probably good to have something else to focus on for a while.
Once I was done at work I stopped by the mall and found some great sales, but unsure as to what size I may be in the coming weeks/months I hesitated to buy anything. Then I came home to read my book. It is the latest Lianne Moriarty which I held off buying until this week as I knew I would be able to get into and that it would be a good read. Welp got to page 100 and discovered the big secret they were building up to was a couple doing donor egg IVF and needing a donor--are you kidding me?!?!
I am meeting a friend to go walking this evening to which J.T. responded "No! You need to rest.". However, when I told him I was getting anxious and thought some LIGHT exercise would help he backed off. He pointed out on Tuesday I am the hippy in our relationship, and he is the worrier. He is trying really hard to help now that I have left the hippy camp and moved into worrier camp.
On top of all of the above I have also prayed, mediated on scripture, and God even provided me with the perfect worship song this afternoon as I was driving home (I will post below). I need to believe what I am saying out loud to my people. "I have some light cramping. Our little friends must be building their duplex!". I am honestly picturing them nestling in and when I feel little pinches and cramping (light) mostly on my right but starting today also down on the bottom left I HAVE to believe that they are here to stay. Thinking anything else is clearly driving me insane! If I happen to be wrong, I will deal with it when the time comes. Now off to plan some distractions!
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