Who Am I?

This is the question I feel I need to answer before anything else moving forward into the unknown that is my future.

To this point I have devoted the bulk of my life to accomplishments.  As a result I have a list of things I have done and roles I have fulfilled, but don't really know who I am.

The good news is the question of Who I Am? is like the riddle of the ages as there is apparently no consensus among the many brilliant and varied people who have tried to define identity.  This great little video serves as a summation as to why this question continues to go unanswered:  https://ed.ted.com/lessons/who-am-i-a-philosophical-inquiry-amy-adkins#review

What strikes me is that much of who I am in Christ speaks to Christ and what He has done for me and what I am as a result of Him, but there isn't much that speaks actively to what He wants from me.

Now I know the "right" answer is He wants my love, faith and obedience, but I'm not going to lie.  I struggle to know how to make that something I DO all day, everyday.  I don't know how to determine what I am supposed to be doing next as a result of these.  I find myself saying "Lord, Lead" sometimes dozens of times a day, and believe He is; however...having spend nearly four decades looking ahead I'm not sure how to live beyond the moment now that I have more firmly placed Christ in the drivers seat:/.

Fortunately from the list of things that God says I am, there are four things I see as actionable:

• I am a child of God.
• I am a branch of the true vine, and a conduit of Christ’s life.
• I have been called to be a saint.
• I am God’s workmanship created to produce good works.

While the answer to "Who Am I?" in Christ never changes, what I may really be seeking is "What do I do Now?".  Again, while I suspect this will always change (be it year to year, day to day or even second to second!) have a stronger foundation in making decisions rooted in Who I am in Christ may be the answer to what I am seeking.  So for now I am seeking more clarity on these four items.

July=Sleep Regression

This seems to be an equation Isabella had in her head from the beginning. 

I'm still standing (well sitting/laying) guard at her door until she falls asleep.  Which honestly could be worse as she does lay in her bed without complaint until she passes out and all I have to do is close the door. 

BUT

We have now added a middle of the night wake up AND a 4:30/5:00 request for "Mommy sit at door!".

I finally broke down and bought a fold up mattress so I can at least be comfortable while I "camp out". 

I try to "lean in" during these times because I feel like there must be a reason she is doing (needs?) this.  BUT she does not sleep as well this was, doesn't get enough sleep overall, and therefore is not fun for anyone (including herself!).

Soooo I suspect I can predict the ending to this chapter as each of the others have in the past with some good old fashioned CIO:(.

Now how do I replace July=Sleep Regression with a new equation that works better for everyone?!?!